As I write this post, I sit in the middle of a food court surrounded by people who look slightly different than I do all speaking a language that is not my native tongue. But today I don’t feel like a fish out of water but rather someone who is at home.
Most days I am the only pale face in the group. Sometimes I get lots of stares especially in places I’ve never been. It can be a little unnerving. But it can also be hilarious.
Sunday night, as we sat around a table eating fish for our Christmas dinner with the artisans, I realized how at home I felt.
Do you know how beautiful of a feeling that is?
It may be one of the most wonderful feelings in the world—belonging. Knowing right here in this moment right where you are is where you belong. I’ve struggled so long with that. I’m sure I’ll struggle with it again in the future but today I’m resting in this peace of coming home.
Resting in the peace that home looks different for us all. Resting in the fact that for some of us, our moment is in the car pool line. Others in the office. Others in Honduras. But God uses each of our moments. Nothing is lost on Him.
Because there’s a mom in that car pool line that needs to know Jesus and you are the person to share Him, not the person in Honduras. There’s a client on the phone who needs prayer and you are the person to pray, not the mom. There’s a brother who needs a ride to the hospital over mountainous roads and you are the person to give that ride, not the person in the office. Our moments are beautiful. They are each needed and perfect.
They are where we belong because ultimately if we are seeking Him in genuine, we are in the center of His will. We are home.
In a few short hours, we’ll board a plane to the USA where we’ll be for the holidays. It will be a good time. A sweet time with family. But already in my heart of hearts, I know I’ll be ready to come home by the end of it, maybe before.
Because this, Honduras, is home now.
The truth is I’m not sure I would have dreamt this life for myself but our Father knows so much better than we do.
His thoughts are higher than our thoughts, His ways are higher than our own.
Some days we curl up in a ball crying for home but sometimes when morning comes we realize, we’re already there.
We’re already home.